For Baltimore


When I hear on the news “they are burning their own neighborhoods”

I remember how refugees detained half-a-world away protest
by sewing their own mouths shut,
how overcast stitches of twine finish the cut edges
of faces that might otherwise unravel
into howls.

Which is more silent: a stitched mouth
or a crushed larynx?

(Freddy Gray howled, the last time we heard him speaking.)

In one corner of my mind, gratitude mixes with grief
for a city still shouting even as
its voices

burn.

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Links on the situation in Baltimore — especially as regards media coverage and issues of violence/nonviolence — follow below the jump.  Continue reading “For Baltimore”

Rising with Her Red Hair

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I have never forgotten                     the night

my father looked at my body and saw only
another fuckable woman living

under his roof.

Women are places
where men                              put things:

bits of flesh
intimate and embarrassing,

emotions too unmasculine to carry            openly
like a purse. Demeaningly useful,

better to deny.

Like landfill next to a gleaming city:
the spires shine best in the dying light

at sunset

as trash heaps heat
to stink their worst.

The oldest profession: Blaming the object coveted

for our own desire.
Did anyone check under Adam’s fig leaf

the day the snake took itself off for a walk
to talk from a tree?

Adam got to blame Eve for the naked

lust lodging in his eyes
while Eve’s eyes got wide

and finally clear.

Suddenly
I am

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PRAISEJESUS grateful

that on the night my father saw how

droit du seigneur coupled                    with a daughter

in the house
made its own brutal but algebraic

logic —

he resolved to resolve his equation with fury          instead,

disemboweling his self-hatred
over top of me.                           Preferable

to what
thought he needed rage to drown

the night a man saw not his child
but a gash

broken open to the world.


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Lives Draw Breath

(for Rekia Boyd)

In the first days

before we knew how #AllLives #AllLives #AllLives
would ring out like a social media
machine gun
aimed at the heart of those crying
#OurLivesToo! —

a friend and I exchanged impossible messages:

“Black lives matter,” I wrote.
“Yes,” her reply. “All lives matter.”

Saying: hers too.
Saying: this rainbow coalition of everyone she loves, too.

“Yes,” my echo, “yes. All lives.”

Asking: are you well are you safe are you loved.
Asking: where can rage and anguish go, when all of the air is taken. 
Continue reading “Lives Draw Breath”

Egg

“A poet writes a poem as a hen lays an egg,
and both of them feel better afterwards.” — Samuel Butler

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I misread the first time.
That’s how much sense I found, saying “yes!
of course the poet and the poem, both
feeling much improved for their process.”

Only after reading again did I realize: the we
who are meant to feel better
includes the hen alone.
The poem, like the egg, impartial to its experience.

I looked down at the treasure I held,
warm moments before
from the heat of my body,
now cold brass.

Then I remembered “one makes the meaning
one needs to find”
and again we three are smiling —

me,

this golden egg
cradled in my palm,

the poem hatching.

~a.i.


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This Is Not A Poem

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This Is Not A Poem

All metaphors point to the insufficiency of languages.

I animate my body like a puppet.
In conversation, the tongue and teeth you argue against
are no more than my hand in a sock.

This is not a metaphor.

Why do the depersonalized find themselves holding
not No Person
but many persons?
The core, the shell, the flesh —
the self that would speak for the flesh if she found
an audience to listen.

The rhododendron in my yard ignites each spring in fuchsia blooms.
I am all my selves but one that can speak “I am”
and know its truth.

And you?
If a stranger reaches out a hand in a crowd to greet you,
do you recognize when that stranger

is yourself?

~a.i.


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The Taste of Ice

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After the attending ordered you shackled to the gurney
and fed ash that you geysered back
like an anguished volcano —

After the medical student inquired about your scarred arms
and lectured on “liver function impairment won’t show
for another 24 to 48 hrs”

After the technician adjusted the slow pulsing drip of your IV
and left a cup of ice chips to feed you
if you ever woke up —

I watched even the backs of your hands sweat
and thought I heard in every rattling breath
a cart pushing closer through the hospital halls:

Nurse Death, making his rounds.

~a.i. 


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